WOW JUST WOW!!

I read this question somewhere today... A year ago, did you think you'd be where you are now?  Absolutely NOT!!  My daughter didn't want to live with me, I had lost another job, I totaled my car, got evicted, my dog died all in a few weeks time.  Sounds like a dead gum country song! HAHA!  I was spiraling down further in my addiction.  Seriously people told me all the time how worthless I was.  "You won't ever amount to anything, Amanda."

Today... WOW TODAY!  I can barely even get my thoughts out because I'm so overwhelmed with all these amazing emotions running thru my soul.  I have been reaching out to Recovery Centers in the Tampa Bay Area to volunteer my time!  Today I met with the director of this one in particular that just happens to be one mile from my house!  I walk in not really knowing what to expect.  I know that I want to volunteer fitness workouts, because to me FITNESS IS A MUST IN RECOVERY!
Do you know this facility wants ME to help them lead RECOVERY CLASSES??? OOOMMMYYYGGGOOOOSSSSHHH!!! I am so very Honored!! I'm excited, and I'm nervous, and I'm scared, and I'm HAPPY all at the same time!! HAHA!!! I'm not experienced in Leading Recovery Classes, I'm not experienced in talking in front of people, BUT I am so very passionate about helping others cross that same bridge that I crossed! I have no idea what words will come out of my mouth my first time in front of people... BUT I KNOW THAT GOD HAS LEAD ME HERE AND HE OBVIOUSLY KNOWS I CAN DO THIS!!

One year ago....No one believed in me, I didn't believe in myself and there's no way I would've believed ANYONE that told me this would be my life now.  The moment you LET GO AND LET GOD he leads to your true destiny.  All the adversity I faced was for a specific reason so I can give a glimmer of HOPE back to someone that needs it! When you believe in YOURSELF and have THE ALMIGHTY GOD on your side, ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!  Don't give up on yourself because YOU ARE WORTH IT! If I can do it SO CAN YOU!! xo

Beachbody Saved Me!

FINALLY!!! Finally, I found something that believes in me as much as I believe in it….BEACHBODY!!  For many years I was in love with beer, because I felt it was the only thing that loved me back.  Beer was most definitely my drug of choice, but that wasn't the extent by any means.  See for a long time I didn't feel like I was loved.  I never seemed sufficient enough in my mom’s eyes and my dad was always working and never had time to hang out.  When I drank a warm cozy feeling overcame me, something I'd never experienced before, like a big embracing hug I'd never gotten.  Once I started I didn’t want to quit because I didn’t want to lose that feeling.

Throughout the years, the more I tried to get people to love and accept me, the more I felt rejected.  I’ve dealt with a man telling me he didn’t want anything to do with our child, abusive relationships, being ARRESTED on numerous occasions, and even going to REHAB!  I finally was ready to give up.  Why should I care if I live to see another day if no one else did?  I LOST EVERYTHING I worked so hard for because of my addiction.  How could something that made me feel so loved at one time do this to me?  How did I get to this place?  I felt as if everyone was judging me and pointing fingers at me instead of helping me get better.  No one cared WHY I was at this place in my life, they just considered me a dead beat, no good for nothing waste of space.

Since no one else was going to help me I HAD to help myself.  There’s many times I should’ve died, but GOD said nope I’m not done with you, in fact I’m just getting started with you.  I had no idea what was about to happen when I packed up and moved to FLORIDA again, but I knew I HAD to make a better life for my daughter and I.  Shortly after I moved down, I was searching for something I could get involved with that’s healthy for me.  I had no idea what, because I completely lost myself.  I didn’t even know what I liked to do anymore.  I PRAYED and PRAYED for God to lead me in the right direction. AND HE DID!!!

I found my BEACHBODY coach online.  I had no idea what all this was about or what I was about to get myself into, but I knew that it HAD to be better than my old life.  He invited me to 813FitClub located in Tampa, FL.  Here is where I fell in love with BEACHBODY and all it has to offer.  We do a different BEACHBODY program every week and I haven’t missed one week since I started going in July!  Not only do I absolutely love the workouts and SHAKEOLOGY, but for me it’s the family that I’ve grown to love so much!  For the first time in my life, I feel ACCEPTED and LOVED! It’s the MOST AMAZING feeling in the world to feel 100% unjudged.  My journey isn’t as much physical for me as it is internal. The person I’ve become and still am becoming on a daily basis is truly a blessing from God.  He lead me to my BEACHBODY family to save me.  I am a firm believer now in surrounding yourself with the right group of people that want nothing but the best for you!  If you are looking for that please do yourself a favor and at least give BEACHBODY a chance.  I would be honored to introduce you to my FAMILY and help you thru the hard times this world can bring us!  Just know there is HOPE…. If I can do it SO CAN YOU!! J